Friday, August 1, 2014
The story thus far...
The first post of course has to be a little bit of an introduction as well as an explanation of why I chose to blog on such a strange subject... Healthy curves. The idea of a blog and workout videos came to me after so many people asked for my advice on diet, fitness and battling eating disorders. I started thinking of the best ways to reach as many people as possible without repeating myself over and over again...And obviously a blog was the conclusion. My goal here is to help as many people as possible defeat eating disorders and distorted thinking when it comes to weight and weight loss. But even those that just need some fitness advice, read on there is something in here for you too. Like I said in my introduction I am not a certified personal trainer, physical therapist or dietician but I do have plenty of experience on my side.
At eleven years old I began my struggle with anorexia. It started with skipping meals here and there followed by a binge and extreme guilt and depression. Each "episode" of starvation was worse then the first and lasted longer and longer until I believed I had it perfected. Of course they all ended in a binge and a new psycho plan to do better then last time. My face was hollow, eyes empty and hair thinning but I didn't care, I had hip bones! My thinking was so distorted... I could no longer make reasonable judgments, I was afraid of myself. It wasn't until I hit rock bottom and was hospitalized that I really saw the damage my habits had done. Not only to me but to so many people around me! To this day I suffer the effects of anorexia, the most frightening of all, will I ever be able to get pregnant? Anorexia is just like an addiction, it is something you will fight forever, it sounds hopeless, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Eating disorders are scary, and they make you feel so alone and defeated. I remember thinking "there is no way I can defeat this, every eating disorder story ends with a personal trainer and personal chef and there is no way I can afford that... Ever. I will die of anorexia." I am here to tell you that is not true, you don't have to have a personal trainer and personal chef to defeat the ugly eating disorder. You need to have the will to change, the motivation and the tools. I have those tools and that motivation for you, right here in this blog, you just need to bring the will :) That is it for me today, just a short and sweet introduction to my blog. I will try to write a couple times a week so please check in and get your weekly dose of motivation. You are strong and beautiful and worth SO much. Until next time, XOXO